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Here’s the Bizz!

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Good evening eejits, remember me?! Yep I am the person who owns this blog and occasionally stops by to say hello, albeit not nearly as often as she should.

This last while I’ve been on a Rollercoaster and several times have thrown my legs overs the side and my feet onto the track, sadly though it would seem that the soles on my boots have worn away as nothing seems to slow me down. Good job my knickers are reinforced, this is a scary ride!!

I’m only a little human being, in the big wide world and I’m wondering how far I can stretch myself before I snap. My resolve has been sorely tested just this weekend alone, but it’s Sunday night and tomorrow is a new day at the start of a new week.

I’ve lacked ideas for things to write about of late, I even kept an eye on the Daily Prompts to see if they were the kick up the arse I required, unfortunately, they were more WTF than WOW! Daily Prompt 1 – Indecisive Eejits Brain – 0, and we’re back again to the lament regarding the not very bright pixie in the forest.

I haven’t drawn for my challenge and it does not look like I will before the closing date, which is ummm today. So tomorrow I will put up a new one and hope that you all forgive me for my indiscretion this time. There is a possibility though that I will change the challenge from weekly to fortnightly, but nothing has been decided yet. You’re still welcome to submit ideas for things you would like to draw, we consider everything because Mama and I believe that a million heads are better than one!

In other news, the job ticks along. The past week was hectic and I struggled  to keep up, but I am finding that some things are getting easier, so given time I am hoping I will be ok. I’ve a few days booked off for not this week but next, the first days off I have had in over 2 months. I can’t wait, but it is marred by not knowing how things are going to be at home, because sometimes believe me, it is better to be in work.

I’m going to try and be little more proactive around here, by forcing myself to sit down and write. There is nothing like giving yourself a good slap to get things done, ultimately it’s not as satisfying as slapping the shit out of someone who it annoying your head, but there less chance of being arrested.

One last thing before I go, I’m not sure what the cause was, but I’ve had a new spate of followers in the last couple of weeks. So to all of you, thank you, pull up a chair and make yourself comfortable, there is a varied mix of wonderful people who sit around this table and you are a welcome addition, just make yourself heard.

Till next time :)

And Breathe…..

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I’m going to put the past week down to experience. I’m glad it’s over, although the repercussions are still carrying on. I’m tired, and I’m going to have to start getting early nights or one of these days I am going to fall asleep and not wake up, it’s not that long till three score years and ten, assuming I even make it that far.

I’ve not been here much this week, there has just been no time, my laptop lay in work redundant for most of last week. Lunchtime, what’s that, couldn’t tell you, cos I spent most of the week working through mine. I did however make a bit of an effort and catch up on my reading, so it you saw one like after another on your posts then it was your turn.

I still feel overwhelmed a lot in the job, however there are moments of clarity and it’s these brief glimpses that give me hope that at some stage there will be a turning point and I will no longer be afraid to call myself a Personal Assistant. Time is a big thing, there are tasks to do but before you have completed the first one another three have been added to the list. I have notes about notes and to do lists about things …to do..duh! I’m realising that my brain is not the efficient filofax it used to be, my capacity for knowledge retention is being seriously tested.  Thank goodness for pens and paper or all would be lost.

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On another note, I was having a chat with someone today and he asked me what I do in my spare time. I laughed and said what’s spare time and then regaled him with tales of the Xbox and also that I was a blogger. Thankfully he knew what that was, and even more thankfully he chose not to ask what the blog was called, because at that point I broke into a cold sweat and started to panic. I not ashamed of my blog, not in any shape form or fashion, but I still feel that people will read it and go ‘what a pile of shite’. That being said, there’s not been very much writing of late that would allow anyone to form any kind of opinion. At which point do you feel like you can tell people you’re a blogger and believe you are deserving of the title.

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Lastly, despite the fact that some eejit thought that this week was the last Cartoon Craziness Challenege forever, it’s not, but I do however need to extend the deadline by a couple of days, because, I haven’t got mine done yet and that’s just disgraceful!! An update will follow.

This is the current challenge: CCC – Week 8

If you have any suggestions for themes, please let either myself or Mama know, they are always welcome.

Till next time, ya bunch of randomers that I adore :)

Song of the week and well worth a listen!

The write stuff…

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In the week or so when I didn’t feel like writing, or felt I had nothing to write about, I went wandering through blogsphere looking for inspiration. I came across the Daily Post writing challenge and thought, oh ello, I’ll have a bit of that. It’s been a long time since I have written any fiction, excluding May Dupp that is, she’s a law onto herself.

The challenge involved picking both a photograph and a first line, before letting your imagination take over and for some reason I wanted to use my character Polly Carmichael again.

It’s a big world out there. Those were the words engraved on the back of the compass.

Polly Carmichael sat on a wooden seat. The wooden seat was in front of a tall building that gave poor Polly a crick in her neck as she tried to count the floors for the umpteenth time.

Teddy sat beside Polly Carmichael on the wooden seat. He too had a crick in his neck from looking up at Polly, who was looking up at the building counting the floors for the umpteenth time.

Passers by looked at the strange combination of the young girl and her Teddy bear sitting on the wooden bench.

“Why are we here Polly?” asked Teddy.

“Because this is where the compass brought me” said Polly holding it towards Teddy so he could see.

That was as far as I got. For two days I wracked my brain trying to think of a punchline around which I could build my little story, but nothing came and I was disappointed, because although I am not too good at it, I quite enjoy penning some fiction.

That’s why I like the May Dupp site, I can craft a life around her that is infinitely more exciting than my own and make her do things that I would never dream of, although to be fair I would be afraid of making her bungee jump lest she broke a nail.

I used to like the Daily Prompt’s, but more often than not these days, I look at them and think what the feck is that all about. I used to love the ‘Okay What If’ weekly challenge, but time was a factor and it was difficult to enter every week.

Perhaps one day out of the blue I will just start to write little works of fiction again and we can all find out what happened to Polly and Teddy and the mysterious compass!

I got the smarts…sometimes!

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Sometimes I have flashes of brilliance, sadly however, they are few and far between. You also must remember that I am rating myself in accordance with my own scale of brilliance, which to be fair, neither starts or finishes very highly.

I suppose rather than being brilliance, it would be better to say I experience seconds of the smarts. In that instance I know what to do, I do it, I don’t flap about it, I am reasonably pleased and the whole incidence passes without too much worry being attached to it.

That’s rather mediocre for having been in a job almost two months, but I am taking comfort from the fact that having seconds of smarts is just the beginning and that full A* status will not be achieved until I have been in my new position for at least six months. Well so those in the know tell me anyway and assuming I am not sacked before that!

If you asked me if I liked the job I still wouldn’t be able to answer, it all depends on what day you ask me. Some are good and some are bad. I like the challenge, but not when it pickles my brains and leaves me feeling like I want to throw myself face first onto the floor and kick and scream. Meh, perhaps that’s just me and nothing to do with the job!

I need to get more organised, both at work and home. I feel that I should have lists and schedules and plans, and ways of working things so that I get more time to do what I want to do, like blogging. It’s a sad state of affairs when your parents have a better social life than you do!

I’m actually blogging this at lunchtime, only I left it too late and didn’t start my lunch until 1.30 and now time is up and I have to go type things for other people instead. So forgive me all my spelling mistakes, and grammatical errors, today I shall blame it on being in a rush.

Remember too, you still have until Sunday to send in an entry for the Cartoon Craziness Challenge, and yes I do know that I still have my own to do!

Just a note to say…

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Every now and then there are changes in the blogsphere.  As in life, nothing stays the same for ever. People come, people go and in this process only one thing is certain, the writing never stops. Regardless of whose fingers are at the keyboard, the alphabet is assessed, assembled and added to a blog somewhere on the world wide web.

I’ve found this blog invaluable for all manner of reasons, but it’s hard work and devoting time can be problematic in an already busy schedule. Every day I carry my laptop to work with the intention of  writing during my lunchtime, but it never happens, something always comes up, or somebody somewhere needs my attention and before you know whats happened the hands on the clock have crept around and stolen 30 minutes from my day. Even as I sit now, my conscience is telling me there are beds to strip, ironing to do and things to prepare for the working week ahead!

Feck it! I’m writing.

Being the owner of a blog brings with it a responsibility of sorts. There is a reasonable expectation that I will post, comment, read and entertain, I have after all tried to trick you into believing I am funny. Last week I didn’t feel funny, I didn’t feel like writing, in fact I didn’t feel like much of anything and I felt guilty for neglecting both you and my little space. This had the knock of effect of pushing me further into the doldrums than I already was.  So that begs me to ask the question, did I fail your expectations, or my own!

The truth is I need this space. Aside from work and home life there is not a big pile going on, mainly because between those two there is very little time left. I have nothing but admiration for those of you who read almost every post, comment on probably twice as many, yet still find time to write on your own blog as well. That takes perseverance and dedication.

I’ve thought about giving up many times, but the truth is I don’t think I could, not at the minute anyway. I’m actually surprised, if I am honest, that I have lasted this long, I’ve usually run out of steam within the first month. The main reason I am still here is you guys, because my rambling filled pages on WordPress would be nothing without your interaction.

So forgive me if I do not get to read, like or comment on all of your posts, you have to believe that it is not a lack of interest on my part, but a lack of time. Forgive me if I do not post as often as I would like to, and also if I rant, I am a woman heading for the menopause, it’s bound to happen! and for those of you with meat and two veg stop making faces, you lot are prone to off days as well!

Thank you for sticking with me and my little place on the world wide web and thank you also for being part of my 500 followers :)

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In the Dark!

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Turn the fecking lights on, it’s dark in here!

Sometimes you want to write about things, other times you want to just bury your head in the sand and hope it all goes away. I sort of adopted a half and half approach to this particular funk, I didn’t want to write about it, but there was too much going on for me to walk to the beach to bury my head in the sand, so I stayed quiet and hoped it would disappear.

Sometimes I get cross and need to vent, you have no doubt experienced a few on here if you are a regular follower. Usually though when I get the funk I won’t write at all, mainly because I don’t like sympathy or comments. It’s hard to be funny all the time,  and it’s hard to maintain a smile for 8 hours a day when the reality is you just want to beat someone senseless with your shoe. For explanation purposes, I picked a shoe because beating someone with your handbag is such an old lady thing to do and I am feeling old enough as it is!

I’ve been so tired,  a combination of too many late nights, a more stressful job and an increased workload in the house. I find myself nodding off in the chair when I finally get to sit in it, which in turn makes me fall out with myself. I hate the idea of wasting the couple of precious hours I get to do my own things, like blogging, falling asleep in a chair.

I hadn’t had a day off for 6 weeks (excluding the weekends of course) so I booked a days leave on Friday because basically my hair looked like I had been playing with balloons and static electricity, I kid you not, it was so wild I half expected to find birds nesting in there. From the moment I stepped downstairs on Friday morning, the Mothership decided it was going to be another weekend of blowing up over stupid little things whether it be force feeding me out of date chicken before I had even had breakfast or a full on melt down over fucking wheelie bins, you name it, it irked her and I got caught in the crossfire. By 11am I was wishing I had gone to work.

When you’re already in a funk that shit doesn’t help, it’s mentally draining. By Saturday morning after at least 10 interruptions while I was trying to get some work done I was ready to jump out a window, backwards, because I did not want my body’s built in air bags to save me!

There is no escape from it. I used to love taking days off, now I dread it, but at the same time I need them.

Thing is though, it’s not just me in a funk, so many of you are feeling exactly the same way. I wonder what’s causing this general feeling oh mehness that hangs over us all like little rain clouds, is it something to do with the fact that Brussel Sprouts are out of season and we therefore have no fuel to blow the blues away?

It’s time to banish the meh, say goodbye to glum, dispense with the doldrums and get our happiness heads on. So for just 2.39 minutes crank up the volume and sing along with Little Voice, it’s time to Get Happy! :)

Life Through The Lens Challenge – Miraculous

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For all my photo friends out there, this is one for you. Get your pics out for the girls :)

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http://mentalinthemidwest.wordpress.com/ http://mentalinthemidwest.wordpress.com/ This weeks Life through the lens challenge is – Miraculous. Display a photo that you have taken or a drawing that you did, which illustrates something wonderful and miraculous to you. This theme will be open to submissions until next Tuesday August 27th, at which point it will close and a new theme will begin. When you are done with your post just do a pingback to here and at the end of every theme i will list all who participated.

This past weeks Life through the lens challenge was fear i want to say thank you to those who participated you did great.
http://mommyx4boys.wordpress.com/2014/08/18/life-through-the-lens-challenge-fear/
http://theqwietmuse.com/2014/08/13/enemy-within/
http://frillthrills.wordpress.com/2014/08/14/life-through-the-lens-challenge-accepted/
http://mentalinthemidwest.wordpress.com/2014/08/15/creative-friday/
This is going to be a weekly challenge done every Tuesday, there will be a theme with which we are supposed to pick out a picture or create a drawing that we feel illustrates the theme. This challenge will last for…

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I was thinking today.

It hurt.

So I stopped!

Only kidding, here’s what I came up with, in a list, cos people like lists and to be honest I am too tired to string it all together. If it’s not legible, think eejit speak and you’ll be grand!

  • I’m still not loving the job, in fact after today I wanted to hide under the desk and cry. I’ve been made permanent in the position though, so there is no backing out now, even though that was never an option in the first place. My boss and the other bosses are dead on, it’s me that’s the problem. In my next life I swear I want to be neither a PA or a Party Planner because I suck at both!
  • Someone was asking me about my blog today and when I said how many followers I had, they asked me if I thought I was successful. My answer was no, I’ve not been successful, because most of the time my writing sucks, but what I have been is very fortunate in the people I have met, because it’s them who make this whole blogging malarky worthwhile.
  • I know I have a load of comments to catch up on and that’s what I should really be doing right now, but I had things to tell you so had to write. That’s my excuse and I am sticking to it. I’ll be with you all shortly!
  • Mama and I are still loving the Cartoon Craziness Challenge and all the support you have given us. Your drawings have been amazing and unbelievably entertaining, whether you think it or not.
  • I’m still liking Blog Lovin as a reader. It’s much better than the WordPress one (sorry guys but yours misses posts) and I rarely miss posts, even if I don’t get to like them all. The WiFi on the train has been a little sketchy of late making connections a tad temperamental.
  • Last, but certainly not least. I’ve put up a couple of posts about myself and homelife etc, and people have commented that they like getting to know me a little better. It’s not that I intentionally hide who I am, it’s just not something that comes up in general commenting. So in an attempt to help you all get to know me a little better, I am going to let you ask me one question. Now I’m not saying I’ll 100% answer every question, because it does rather depend on what you ask, but I’ll try and come up with something. Thank you to Dean from It’s A Wee Bit Wordy for letting me pinch his idea, he has his own Q and A posts on a Tuesday if you’d like to question him as well!

Well that’s all for now….I think.

Till next time eejits :)

Too many balls, not a lot of juggling!

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There has been very little free time this past week. Every time I sat down to write something all the ideas I had went flooding out instead of flooding in.

I feel a little bit over whelmed, this last month or so has been crazy busy and I always feel like I am in a higher than normal state of stress, visitors, new job, organising, planning, shopping, cooking, cleaning, washing and ironing, if this were a merry go round I would already have jumped by now.

I suppose the main factor behind the whole thing is that everything happened all at once. I don’t feel settled at work and that appears to be having a domino effect on everything else. No matter how home life was, work was always a constant, I knew my job, I could do my job and I happily worked away in the background. The new job is a little more in the fore front and last week I felt like a tennis player in front of one of those machines that serves the ball at a million miles an hour, only it had gone haywire and there were balls being fired at me all roads and directions. It would appear I am a shit juggler!

I’ve said over and over this week that I am not cut out for this job, and I firmly believe that. I am a terrible decision maker, I dither and I lose valuable hours and minutes checking and double checking myself and then still worrying about the finer points. I know I am new in the job, and I know the chances are it will get better, or let me rephrase that, I will get better, but this period in between stupid and smart is knocking lumps out of my already battered self confidence. I hate not knowing what I am doing, it feels like failure is smacking me repeatedly about the face.

I would love just one weekend where I didn’t have to worry about anyone else but myself. Thing is though, despite what I say I would still worry. I’d love for other people in my house to realise that they can lift things off the floor, wipe benches, clean up talcum powder that clearly threw itself all over the bathroom and perhaps even put a wash on sometimes. My Dad is good at helping but sometimes it’s the small things that irk the most.

I’m tired, because sometimes my brain will not shut down enough to enable me to relax, which means I stay up until stupid o’clock to make sure that I actually sleep when my head hits the pillow. Dad’s been having the same issues, I hear him pacing the floors as well. He probably needs a break more than me.

I know things in work will even out and I will become more settled, but this was one of the reasons why if I had been given the choice of taking the job, I would probably have refused. I just don’t need the additional stress right now, there is no where to escape from it. Thank goodness for this blog and you guys.

So my mantra for this week is don’t stress the small things, try to make decisions and have faith that there is light at the end of the tunnel and remember if all else fails I can always hide under the desk until Friday! :)

Look out for the new Cartoon Craziness Challenge theme tomorrow eejits and thank you for all your participation so far!

P.s I’m ok honest, I just needed to vent, look I feel better already, I’m smilin!