We are living in strange times, well, we have been saying that for over two years now. With covid, the world had to adjust to a new way of living, is adjusting to a new way of living, and perhaps we hoped that for a little while at least this was the worst that was to come. It wasn’t.
Silence on my part does not mean I have nothing to say, I have plenty of thoughts and feelings about how things are in the world at the moment, I just cannot find the words to express it. I am not qualified to speak on subjects I know nothing about, I never liked politics or understood the many complexities of how countries interact with each other, but I feel the human effects of it in my heart. I feel for all those people.
My anxiety has been at an all time high, that’s the strange thing I find about it sometimes, while it’s a very personal experience, more often than not my spikes are caused by worry for others, usually things I cannot control. I stopped watching the news, I had to, it was feeding my anxiety and I was letting it consume me. I didn’t stop because I don’t care, I stopped because I do care and it was affecting my mental health. I need to be able to exist, I have other people to look after besides myself. I still look sometimes though, scanning the text for glimmers of hope, but I am not sure what to look for.
That’s the thing isn’t it, I can still exist, and yet that is a something that is being denied to other people.
There are no words.
4 thoughts on “There are no words”
I understand exactly what you are saying. I, too, have to take breaks from watching the news. It is so discouraging to see what is happening. I believe ego, the need for power and money is what drives most professional politicians, corporate and world leaders. God help us because we can’t seem to get it right ourselves.
I agree with you Jules, I am finding it harder to watch the news when we see such wanton destruction and loss of life. It seems so pointless, more one man wanting to satisfy his ego. Hang in there, find reasons to be optimistic, there’s got to be something positive in all of this, determined bravery is one thing against such great odds. Take care.
So true! We are lucky to lead a normal life.
I do definitely understand the anxiety. My mom feels it too (her family escaped war-torn Hungary before she was born), so the current events are hitting hard.