Okay, What if You could change!

Okay, What if? Challenge – You

What of you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

Perhaps I didn’t think this challenge through before I issued it. I mean did I seriously think I was going to be able to narrow all the things I would change about myself down to just one, who was I trying to kid!

Throughout my life there have always been things I wanted to change, sometimes even my life itself. I wonder how many of us can say with all honesty that we are living the life we always thought we would. Certainly not me, some of that is my fault and some is down to circumstance, not all things are within our control. In order to change, you need to have the time and means to do so.

There are things I wish I had done, things I wish I could do, and perhaps some things I will still yet manage before my time is up. When I sit and consider everything, all paths lead to the door of confidence, which where I am concerned is firmly shut.

Confidence, or lack of is not like a bruise, it is not an affliction you can see, as such, you might be surprised by the number of people it can affect. I know I have shocked people with my admission, because apparently I appear much more confident than I actually am.

Most everything in life takes a dash of confidence to accomplish, even the most simple thing like walking into a room full of strangers.What can be exhilarating for some, can be crippling for others.

I hate second guessing myself, but it has almost become part of my daily routine. I will eventually make a decision, however I will waste time both before and afterwards fretting the outcome. Lately this has proved detrimental to both my work and my mental health. My perceived failure in my current job is shattering the small shards of confidence I had. I am not stupid, I know that I am my own worst critic, but no matter how many people tell me I am doing just fine, I do not feel like I am. I need to learn to give myself a break, I can only do what I can do.

That said, who would have thought that during this post I would show a little confidence and narrow down my choices after all, either that or I am being super smart and have more posts planned, this theme for me could be endless.

Orange/Apple Confidence

28 thoughts on “Okay, What if You could change!

  1. Hooray for you!…..Not only a full post but also plans for more! And confidence!!! You are in good form today, miss! Quite impressed. As for me……I’m still in the narrowing it down phase….it’s not good when you start with 500 things to sift through!

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  2. I think this confidence thing, or lack of it, is much more common than you might realize. I wonder how many of us pretend that we’re self-confident, and hope no one finds out the truth. In my case the truth is, I find I’m a bit more sure of my self here than in person. So if I could change one thing about myself (god, there is so much I’d redo about me, and becoming more self-assured is right up there). I would love to be meticulously observant, instead of rather oblivious to what goes on around me. I need to learn to pay closer attention. Yeah, that’s it. :O)

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  3. Oh, yes I suffer too from the confidence dilemmas, the overthinking and wondering why no one believes me when I say I am not doing my job well. It really gets in the way of life. I’ve just deleted the rest of my comment because it was turning into a mini post!! Watch my space, I’ll do something over there and give you a ping :-)

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  4. I think lots of us face those things. I think those are great choices. And while I could benefit from them, I think the thing I would change is my inability to limit the things I take on. Everything is so sparkly and interesting. Then I’m trapped beneath the sheer weight of it all.

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  5. Ah darling – my little treasured Eejit – the Gems of the Juls – read this (in capital letters as well BUT I’m not shouting – honestly) YOU ARE MORE THAN ENOUGH – AS YOU ARE. PERIOD. END OF SENTENCE.

    Make it your mantra – and yeah, you DO need to give yourself a huge break – because if you don’t – you’re going to end up on the crazy train – not the A-train – and sweetheart, you are so WORTHY of allowing yourself permission to NOT worry about every little friggin’ thing. Get yourself to your doctor of choice – and SPEW it all out – there is HELP available, in all forms and manners – you just need to ask. And God knows woman, we love you too much to watch you melt into a puddle of spam.

    Extra hugs to you Juls – cause yeah, I Love you XD

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      • Ach, if I was sitting on your shoulder, you’d be getting more than you bargained for – the “angel” cheering you on and being good to you etc. – BUT – the devil me — LOL – if you thought you could get into lots of trouble my your lonesome – *snort* you have no idea XD

        I’ll always tell you Truth – because they are good – and you are wonderful – and need to hear them more often :D

        Ach, how am I?

        Well…. I’m still here – sort of mostly upright – sometimes a bit twisted over from pain – lalala blah blah blah – but, hey, that’s my life – so, I do the best I can, as I can, without trying to tip too far over the edge ;)

        Have a great day – afternoon/evening etc. And LOL -let me know how Friday shapes up, since you get there before me, by more than a few hours, at least ;)

        Thinking of you Juls :D XXX ‘cos everyone needs hugs, eh?

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      • Everyone does need hugs, so you of course can have a million and one in return. I wish you were telling me that you were feeling good, I wish I could make that happen, but I know you’ll always do the best you can. Love you loads x

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      • Right back at ya – and have a good rest of your evening – I hope you sleep well – when you get to bed – and that tomorrow is a wonderful day.

        Don’t be worrying about me none – I’ll survive – well versed in it, don’t ya know ;)

        Hugs and all the stars you need, to wish you sweet dreams :D

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  6. Okay. I have finally narrowed it down. I don’t think it’s enough for a whole post though so I’m just here to say, if I could change one thing about myself, it would be my rigidity in the way I need to have things done and what I want/expect to happen. I wish I was a much more flexible person as far as being able to accept some things/people as they come to me and not have to jump in and “perfect” them all up if you know what I mean……..,

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