Why did I ever……….

….think it was a good idea to take a week off work! Seriously, WHY!

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While not this overjoyed at the prospect of a week away from my desk, I was a little excited all the same. I’d put in a lot of hours and they were all mounting up so I felt it was time, well that and I have to fit leave around everyone else’s schedules too.

I had plans, catch up on jobs I had to do for other people and also on things I needed to do around the blog. I factored time in for some writing also, perhaps some gaming and a little relaxation. Guess what? It’s already Thursday and very little of that has actually happened, in fact this is turning out to be the week from hell!

There have been tears, tantrums, toilet disasters (not mine thank you very much!) and basically a whole heap of running around doing things for other people. In fact Tuesday was pretty much the only day or normality where I got to visit friends and stroke a few things off the list.

I’m beginning to wonder if perhaps the Fathership had a clever plan in making appointments for this week, although I am sure he would deny it. Today however, just when I thought things couldn’t get any worse, one of my teeth broke, I have to say my eyes leaked in despair, I was at the end of my tether!

I have an appointment scheduled for tomorrow, which I dread for two reasons, fear of the dentist and fear of the cost of the dentist. I will openly admit I am a big ginny ann with regards to all things dental. I did however know this day was coming, it was only a matter of time before my back tooth caved in, too many years of clenching due to anxiety. Why I couldn’t just have been like everyone else and used the butt cheeks instead, I’ll never know.

Tomorrow will be Friday, so along with the anxiety of having to attend the dentist, the fact that I have to return to work on Monday will also start to prey on my mind too, seriously brain, give a girl a break would you!

If you have any going spare I would be grateful if you could send a few lucky vibes my way, I have a feeling I am going to need them!

Feeling Meh-ry, not Merry!

I don’t know what it is, but now Christmas has departed I am feeling a little on the meh side. Instead of revelling in the post Christmas delights of over eating and the Wizard of Oz, I am instead nursing a rather grand case of post Christmas blues.

In some ways this was not the relaxing break I had hoped for. I forgot that although I had a few days off work, things at home would be the same meaning the cooking and  the cleaning would carry on. So sadly do Mums mood swings. I try to stay calm, but sometimes it proves really difficult. I also remind myself daily to not take it personally, but that can also prove difficult.

Perhaps that’s the cause of some of the mehness. Most people look forward to the New Year and the chance to hypothetically start over with a clean sheet, while making promises to not make the same mistakes as the previous year. I’m a little bummed out because in the near future  it looks like the only thing in my future is more of the same. We’re sort of at a crossroads, where the situation is getting worse, but not to the stage where we can seek outside help. My Dad says not to worry and that things have a strange way of working out, but asking me not to worry is like asking me not to breathe, That is something else I intend to address in the New Year.

I still find it uncomfortable to write things like this on my blog, and despite how many times I tell myself I can write what I want, it’s a hurdle I stumble, not leap over. Couple that with yesterday having a crisis of confidence (yes again) and bemoaning the fact that I don’t feel like I write like an adult I was ready to throw in the towel and admit defeat. Unfortunately, for you that is, it only lasted a short period of time, so I’m not going anywhere any time soon, sorry to disappoint!

In the mean time I am going to do the housework and give myself a serious talking to. I would do it in a dark room but the daytime scuppered that idea.

Merry Meh-ness people, tomorrow (or even later on) is another day!

It’s getting close…

Happy Christmas

The turkey has been picked up and is chilling in it’s little plastic onsie in the fridge! The vegetables arrive tomorrow for the short stay at our house before they disappear into my tummy. Only one more day at work and then there is not having to worry about it for another five days. Anyone would think it was Christmas. Oh wait it is……

I have to be honest and say I am not a big Christmas lover, I think I may have mentioned that before. Occasionally though I do get overcome with the spirit of it all, and burst into random renditions of Christmas carols. I also have a fondness for festive TV, and may in fact watch the Wizard of Oz for the 100th time. I’ll counter and possibly win discussions by starting off with ‘But it’s Christmas…’ and there is no doubt that I will eat way to much and promise that I will never do so again.

I’m really looking forward to a few days off, a chance to relax and unwind, catch up on some blog reading and perhaps, if you are really unlucky, I might even write a few posts of my own. I’ve missed so many great posts lately, but life has been a little more hectic than usual.

We have weather warnings in place for high winds over the next couple of days so I hope the electricity stays on. I would hate to spend  my 5 days off suffering from Brussel Sprout withdrawal symptoms.

Chances are I will be back before the big day, but should I not be, I would like to wish each and every one of you a very Merry Christmas. I am so grateful for the support I have received from you all, right down to each and every like and comment! It’s been humbling and overwhelming.

Who would have thought at the start of 2013 that I would meet a bunch of wonderful eejits like you!

Merry Christmas, I hope it’s a good one!