So I was thinking, and I know I’m not supposed to be doing as much of that, but I was bored whilst travelling home and figured it would be a good way to pass the time.
I love people watching, and a long journey is just the right place to do that. The evening train is packed full of many different characters, school children, students, shoppers, those in suits, and then people like me.
I had no clear direction of what I wanted to do when I was younger. My Sister was the smart one, thankfully she has enough smarts for both of us. She was focused on her studying and worked really hard to forge her career. I had no idea what I wanted to do and was extremely undisciplined when it came to a learning. I can still remember people stressing to me at exam time how important it was that I study, while I stood there nodding my head, promising that I would, but not really meaning it. Being older I can now see how that must have been very frustrating for the speaker, as anyone I tried to impart the same wisdom to, gave me the look and answers I had, causing me to jump up and down saying nooooo, you have to believe me, I speak the truth!
I wish now though that I had focused, studied and perhaps had a trade so to speak. I would love to have gained a little more knowledge regarding computers, and yes I know it’s not too late and I could still enrol in classes, but that takes both time and money, neither of which I have in abundance right now.
If something interests me I will self teach myself and that knowledge has got me through life so far without too many major problems. But still, hindsight is a wonderful thing.
I have always done office work. I’m probably not the best there is out there, but I am certainly not the worst either. I try to treat people as I would like to be treated, but I am noticing as I get older that there are a few less notches on my bullshit meter and my hormones which are undoubtedly hurtling towards the menopause make me more prone to wanting to choke people.
As you get older life becomes a little less carefree and a lot more stressful. Perhaps it’s your body telling you that you have to grow up, but your brain is fighting it, because it still thinks it’s 18 and in the prime of its life!
Things that were previously effortless now require work. Life’s got busy and there is not a lot of time for the day to day and people can feel left behind, which is not actually the case. Friendships and relationships are a two way street, that require effort from both sides if they are to survive. I personally find that living life day to day like my Dad and I now do, leaves me mentally drained and unable to cope with anything after 9pm, lets call it my threshold watershed! Sometimes just getting through a day unscathed is an achievement in it’s own right.
So taking all things into consideration, the chances are that even had I studied and been a top notch information technology specialist, I would still be sitting where I am today. I would have had the same heart that would have loved and been broken by the same people. I would have had the same sense of duty towards home life and sadly I would probably have made the same mistakes.
I don’t have to like it, but it’s where I am at. I don’t have much, but I am hopefully conscientious in my work, loved by my family and friends and good at lots of little bits and pieces that will see me through to the end of this journey.
I might not be overloaded with the smarts, but thankfully there is a shred common sense!
The Indecisive Eejit 
Smarts we can work on, common sense you either have or you don’t. :-)
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That’s true, I have a smart mouth sometimes, does that count? lol
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Works for me!
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Yes but it won’t ever be directed to you….unless you sass me first and then I’ll just have to……cry lol
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It’s ok, I am fluent in sarcasm, so even if it was directed at me it’s still good.
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Ahhh tis all good! Boy am I glad I met you lol
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Likewise!
:-D
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common sense??? …..
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Yes!! Do you doubt that…… be careful how you answer lol
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Having smarts is not all. If you’re a grumpy, horrible person, it doesn’t matter how smart you are. And as you say, you’d probably still be in the same situation as you are now.
But you sound a bit down and I hope that gets better… :/
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Aww no chum I’m all good. Just looking back at life is all, there was no sadness meant with this post at all. I’m quite happy where I have ended up, for the most part anyways. But you, you have to study so you can reach the moon! :)
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(Hugs). I think you are wise. Love the quote that you selected.
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I am loving the fact that there is pretty much a quote about everything. I especially like the ones I can understand, some of them are a little too high falutent or whatever that word is lol
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Common sense is rarer than book smarts!
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That’s what we used to say about the photometric tests the Civil Service has, they have nothing to do with desk jobs. All the people with brains get the jobs, but have no common sense to keep em lol
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Are you doing anything that you enjoy, just because you enjoy it?
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That would be blogging lol I do enjoy my work tho, looking at another comment someone has left here I seem to have come across a little sad and that was not my intention lol
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Your post had me lol-ing. Good luck and i hope it all works out!
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I’m glad to hear it :) and thank you, sure it’ll turn out just how it’s meant to :)
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There’s no art in smart. Oh no wait, there is. Well. Looks like I don’t got none smarts either.
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Ah well then I have no worries, for I am in fine company :)
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You sound like me, being older (36 here) but still convinced up top that I’m a kid and constantly having to remind myself that I’m an adult and it’s okay to take charge and make myself heard and do the right thing. Being a leader, not a follower, and having squandered the early education in exactly the same way probably because I was never allowed to lead and didn’t know to take it.
So when it comes to smarts, I think they might be just a tad overrated; just a dab’ll do ya.
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See isn’t it funny how we view ourselves, cos I would class you as really intelligent. A lot of the times I don’t comment on your posts, it’s because I am like, whoaaaa I don’t even know what to say to that, he’s to smart for me lol
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You’re just missing out on the conversation, is all! Of course, not knowing what to say is probably the best opportunity to say nothing, so you’re making the correct decision; it makes you look better overall not to be injecting meaningless comments. :)
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And that was a great post, thank you kindly for the read.
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You’re welcome ;)
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